I'm missing a lot of things right now

The seeds flying into the air were unknown to me. They weren't constructed like dandelions or cat en nine tail seeds, but they continued to blow and streak in massive numbers across the land. They sat in the grass, swept across the ground all around us. Seeds of change I thought. Seeds of time/moments blown away that were once there. Now they've left to reproduce elsewhere and flourish on the own. 

I scooped one up on my finger. Where will it go? Could I travel with it? I really have a desire to leave this life and bare it on my own somewhere easier. Because things haven't been easy. It was so fitting for the cottony seeds to be surrounding my friend and I in the car at Olentangy. We had just finished discussing a query involving our lives at our small art college. In many ways, we felt we haven't turned a new chapter over in our lives from high school to college. Both of us have experienced reasons to believe that we were only adding pages to our adolescent lives. I wonder if I've grown from my experiences. I think about this more and more lately. 

I know I have, however. More and more I know my life was different four years ago and it's different now that I'm finished with a BFA. It's simple to declare a major part of your life as an unchanging past because we're beyond it now, we've grown smarter and better from the experience. Is it human nature to feel arrogant towards that?

The seeds have passed on from me. I can see my life floating right now with them, waiting for a heavy wind to take them to their new location/my new chapter. The question remains in my mind though; Am I supposed to be carried away alone?

NASA–People Tree

This song and video has cheered me up on a lot of empty days. The duo verse at the end blows my mind everytime.