5.17.2009

Graduating into a Beautiful World

The day finally came and I'm really happy it's over and done with. I was told that art college graduations are fun and pretty crazy, but CCAD's 130th commencement wasn't too mind boggling. I gave this speech as former student government president of our senior class:

Beliefs. When it comes down to it, I think I’ve learned the strongest skill while at CCAD in knowing what my beliefs are. With your permission I’d like to share some of them with you today.
I believe that when my mind sends a nerve impulse through my body that feels like I’m getting kicked in the ribs, that means I’m hungry and I should make a sandwich.
I also believe there are times when our mind and body know where we need to go, what we need to do, what we should and shouldn’t say and what happens next before we consciously do. And there are times when our conscience can screw that all up.
I believe that when a skeleton walks into a bar, he will always ask for a beer and a mop.
I trust and believe that we will all be able to look back at ourselves 15 years from now and see we still have some of the wild and unorthodox natures we did while we were at CCAD.
I believe we all have the knowledge to know that good people respect good opinions no matter who they’re coming from.
I believe we can be absolutely crazy sometimes to the ones we love.
I also believe that the ones who love us right back don’t think we’re crazy, just annoying.
I believe all of us graduating today have the tools needed to find out who we are out there in the real world.
And finally as I look at you all, my friends and fellow graduates. I believe that after the hell they put us through, it doesn’t matter what happens out there because we’re standing here right now with our degrees and we’ll always fight for what we believe in.

I got inspired on a bus ride home the day before graduation. The subject was fitting considering I've been doubting some of my beliefs for the past week. The month I've had has made me quite weary about my true feelings towards life and someone who's fallen away from me. With all these big changes happening around me: graduating, breaking up and being accepted into grad school, I'm not sure where my real feelings are at the moment. I already feel so different, so happy leaving the life I had while in college. I am, however, wishing that some of things in my life hadn't left. Not just yet atleast...

I've recently been having dreams again (it's amazing what a graduation can do for a student who's been overstressed and routined for four years) and let me tell you, they've been good. You wake up happy when you have a realistic dream that shows off the woman you'll marry, the family you'll have and the life you'll share with them. Of course I soon realize I'm twenty two, with no real foot in the door of that dream.


So here I am, with so much in front of me, but still in limbo. It's times like these that you realize the world is too big for you. It's time for some simplicity, it's time to crank out some of that inner beauty, to reach out and hold onto the things you need and desire and bring the world back down to your size, just the way you like it.

If only I could find that pulley system.

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